Thanks.I want to find the words to say thank you.
Who are you, to care enough to nurture me? I never knew what it felt like
to have unconditional love. It scares me. I guess that's a conditioned
response, because I still find myself waiting for the other shoe to drop.
At least now I know where that doubt comes from. Maybe I really do deserve
good things in life. That's a possibility I've never even considered before. This isn't how I wanted to say thanks. I feel beautiful words when I think
about how much you've done for me, but they don't ever seem inclined to come
out on the page. Some days I still feel despair, but I know that it has an end. The hardest
are the times when I feel flat and unresponsive, because I feel as if I'm
disappointing both of us. How can you stand to help me hold this pain. I see the same pain in the eyes
of those around me and turn away, because I feel that I stand helpless in the
face of their pain. I feel that must be true, for I stand helpless in the
face of my own pain. I know that I must admire you, for you have faced your
own pain and stand victorious on the other side. I sometimes believe there
is hope, for you stand as an example that victory is attainable. |