she felt each inch of her skin alive at the touch of the cool air, his
fingers, skin, breath.  So close she could hear his heartbeat.  So she matched
her breathing, listening, watching.  and she did not move.  couldn't say the
reason, but like she was waiting for some kinda sign or something, maybe kinda
like the mouse in the hawks gaze, frozen solid.  and so he touched her and he
licked her breasts and as they breathed in time, quiet unbroken she told him
please don't stop that feels so good oh daddy i love you until it sang in her
blood like the rising of the sun, of life itself and he grew bolder and moved
down touching the bad place that feels so good why did you do that i never
wanted i was so scared it felt so good

the pain came after and she was so confused by all the wonder mixed with all
the pain

and she has always been so ashamed